Waterworks

I often seem to be on the verge of tears. The oddest situations move and I feel those tears forming behind my eyes. Sometimes situations that should make me sad, don't. I feel apathetic towards them. Why can't I seem to get emotional about the right things?
Things that Causes that Lump:

I wish I could figure out what to do. The whole event planning thing, um, yea, it doesn't seem to pay much. Some can do really well. But I lack the whole "go-get-em/work super hard for my dream" attitude. This whole indifference towards my life is getting really old really fast.

I wish I could get passionate about something, anything. Get really into something and then stick to it. Its going to be lovely. I'll be this alone, desolate old maid with nothing but my misery and regrets. My last words will be "meh".

Sad.

Lets hope it changes. Or rather I change.